Realizing exactly how much i needed a full life with him terrified me personally.

Realizing exactly how much i needed a full life with him terrified me personally.

It felt cruel for me to want this man, THIS man, 16 years my junior and who I believed was sure to abandon and hurt me that it was possible. Therefore I attempted to destroy my desire by gathering any flaw, mistake, and inconsistency i possibly could find and hurling them at him one at a time. The much deeper we fell, the greater fearful we became, as well as the more I looked for flaws to indicate and criticize. We was thinking We may stop loving him if We discovered so just how deeply problematic and immature he had been. Alternatively, I experienced offered him valid reason to keep me personally, and I became more afraid than ever before that he would. Continue reading “Realizing exactly how much i needed a full life with him terrified me personally.”